Tweet Okay it takes me a long time to get motivated to do things I HATE to do. The thing I hate most is actually a twofer. I hate dieting and I hate exercising. I hate the whole mentality. The self-deprivation, self-loathing, disappointment, and eventually failure.
Hubs made a bet with some fellas from Church about loosing weight. To be honest I have not been supportive. I have been a horrible enabler for both our bad eating habits. One thing Hubs and I are petrified of is that Little Bit will be obese. We are both obese and it is disabling is so many ways. We have to set the example.
When I was pregnant I ate fantastically. I have never taken such good care of myself. I had gestational diabetes and followed the plan pretty well. I never had to take medication because I managed it with diet.
If I could do it then why cant I eat well now? I eat when I'm lonely and sad. Being a stay at home Momma sometimes those feelings are daily, hourly, and constant. I have been forcing myself to go out more. I joined the Mommy meetup club, the Little Gym, and we went to the library today for baby story time. I also ordered an ergo baby carrier which I hope will come today.
I will tell you all the truth. Since I have been doing more I am super exhausted. I have been without exercise for so long. This was perpetuated by my partial bed rest when I was pregnant and I never got all my momentum back. I want to change that.
What I am declaring today is not that I am going on a diet. I am readjusting my life. I am going to find the joy in the everyday. I am pledging to play. I am going to take Little Bit out even if I am exhausted when we get back. Even if I miss that wonderful thing called nap time to the drive home. I am going to eat better. I am going to follow the diabetic plan and by doing that I think my calories will fall into place. I am having a life and attitude makeover but I am NOT dieting.
I offer the ever inspirational Romans 12:1-2
"Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will."